If you actually read this whole thing, THANK YOU!! I wanted to lay out this transition I have been going through in the last year, it's been awkward and I feel like a hypocrite sometimes. I'm still trying to finding my place in what I can do.
At this time, eight years ago, I was not a happy camper. I thought this country was going to go down the toilet. All the Liberal Hipsters got their way, wouldn't shut up about it, and I wanted to hibernate until it was all over. People placed the Obamas on a pedestal before doing anything and I was just rolling my eyes the whole time. I was a big skeptic. Society became TOO Politically Correct and it bugged me, I blamed Obama. I blamed Obama for a lot of things I didn't like about society, even as I write this, I think I partially blame him for Trump becoming President (there's a bunch of factors there, not just him).
Anyway, throughout those years I talked my shit, criticized President Obama, and felt like not enough "Change" was happening. Sometimes I came across as a real dick. In 2012, I was not going to vote for him, I was going to vote for Mitt Romney, even though he was a Mormon and I was concerned about him pushing his Conservative views, he was the Governor of Massachusetts, how bad could he be? I did not feel threatened or disgusted by him. I changed my mind in the voting booth. I don't know why I did, maybe I felt like voting for Romney was a waste, that the country wasn't in the position for a shift? I honestly don't know. Meanwhile, throughout all of this, I remained Pro-Choice and supported Equal Rights. I continue to have both liberal social views and conservative fiscal/foreign views. This is why I am a registered Independent because I have a hard time following either party to the T.
Once his second term began, Republicans started prepping for 2016 and there were 34,694,842 people running for the Republican ticket, Trump was the joke of the bunch - which isn't easy to pull off because there were a few. Hillary Clinton was picking up momentum and once again I was thinking "UGGGGGHHHH! Am I even gonna bother voting next time??" Mitt Romney and John McCain were both weak candidates. I was hoping for a better Republican candidate because there was no fucking way I was going to vote for Hillary Clinton! bleech!
Fast forward to the home stretch and it's coming down to Trump & Clinton, this is really happening. Trump doesn't stand a chance, right? I mean the Obamalovers will come out in full force, and then Bernie Sanders happened and threw a monkey wrench in the whole machine (I also blame him but I give him credit for trying to be different). Early on, I actually agreed with Trump on issues about better border control and the economy and then he started talking about a "wall" and registering Muslims and my gut started to tighten, this ain't right. And his insults! The childishness! I watch Clinton take it all and remain professional, I respected that. I know politics gets ugly and smear campaigns are a regular thing, but Trumps behavior was not what I look for in a President but almost half the country didn't care and elected him anyway. I sure didn't, I voted for Clinton. Donald Trump made me fucking vote for Hillary Clinton!
The sense of dread I felt Election night was just too overwhelming, I hated it. I never felt this way over a new President before, not for Obama, not even for George W. Bush! My heart was changing. I'm older, I see things differently. Are my rights threatened? Personally? I don't think so but I can see how they are for others, and that's not cool.
I did not attend any of the Women's Marches that happened on January 21st but I followed closely the news coverage on TV and online, mostly through Facebook Live. I was so happy to see so many of my friends filling my feed who did march in various places, or from others who also could not attend but still shared their support. Overall, I am lucky to know such great people. While I bitch about how annoying Facebook can get, my feed was full of a lot positivity over the weekend and I felt hopeful. That march was HUGE! Or as Trump says, "YUGE!" I felt it was a little unfair that Pro-Life Feminists were not allowed to march (yes I really said that). This march should have been as inclusive as possible. But the images don't lie Press Secretary Spicer, the people came out! Maybe even more people came out after hearing that horrible Inauguration speech?
Just because you didn't march does not mean you care less. There is still much that can be done. One step is to check out 10 Actions for the first 100 Days, which is a new campaign hosted by Women's March. It includes prompts of what you can do now that the work begins now in your communities.