I like to think I have realistic expectations but sometimes, it might come across as being negative or pessimistic. Mike and I go back and forth about this, when I say something is not going to happen because of A, B, and C, I'm accused of not being optimistic. Sure, I can appear negative sometimes, but I am not pessimistic. I'm actually quite the opposite. I'm not a gothy emo doom and gloom schmuck that doesn't bother with anything because "we're all going to die anyway!" type of person. I still believe that you can do anything your heart desires if you work for it. Life is too short to be miserable, do as many fun things as possible!
As I've gotten older, I have come to accept and let go certain things in my life. I don't think I'll ever get to visit all the countries I want to because, you know, money. I won't be a successful Jewelry Maker. I won't be opening that funky, quirky, kitschy gift shop selling really cool handmade gift items and low-brow original art because the market has changed and I seem to have lost that desire for it. It was a dream I had a few years, now it's no more and I'm cool with that. I don't even know if I want to have my own business anymore (!!). I don't see this as "If I continue, I'm going to fail." No. It's just not for me anymore.
So many goals and dreams I once had, was hoping to achieve, have faded and instead of fighting to hold on to that dream, I've peacefully let them go. I am still driven by dreams. Lots of them! There is so much I am still pursing. I still want to travel, buy my first home, finish my tattoo sleeve, and keep being awesome with Mike, and immersing myself in this blog. I also want to continue to work in Blogging and Social Media and never work 9 to 5 in an office ever again. I really enjoy the work I do for A Little Beacon Blog and think it would be kind of cool if I can get maybe one more freelance gig - am I nuts?
But that's life isn't it? It is always changing and evolving and it's ok to change with it. Instead of being tied down to one picture you painted for yourself many years ago, don't be afraid of change and letting go if something you once had a passion for is no longer there. Embrace something new and look forward to what lies ahead.